Jason Mraz - A Beautiful Mess

You've got the best of both worlds
You're the kind of girl who can take down a man,
And lift him back up again
You are strong but you're needy,
Humble but you're greedy
Based on your body language,
your shouted cursive I've been reading
You're style is quite selective,
though your mind is rather reckless
Well I guess it just suggests
that this is just what happiness is

Hey, what a beautiful mess this is
It's like picking up trash in dresses

Well it kind of hurts when the kind of words you write
Kind of turn themselves into knives
And don't mind my nerve you can call it fiction
'Cause I like being submerged in your contradictions dear
'Cause here we are, here we are

Although you were biased I love your advice
Your comebacks they're quick
And probably have to do with your insecurities
There's no shame in being crazy,
Depending on how you take these
Words that paraphrasing this relationship we're staging

And it's a beautiful mess, yes it is
It's like, we are picking up trash in dresses

Well it kind of hurts when the kind of words you say
Kind of turn themselves into blades
And the kind and courteous is a life I've heard
But it's nice to say that we played in the dirt
Cause here, here we are, Here we are
Here we are.

I just got back from Adrienne's wake.
I'm not sure whether I should be calling her Aunty Adrienne.. or just Adrienne...
Whatever it is.. her wake was beautiful...

I'm so accustomed to the typical chinese wakes.. whether Christian or Buddhist...
The pastor/priest gets up to the mic.. says a few prayers.. everyone cries.. family members share a few stories about the deceased.. they start playing prayer hymns... etc.

..but this was so different and yet so same in every way.

I'm not sure what the full story is, how she moved on...
..whether she knew her time was coming...
..whether there is more to the story..
..but she wrote a diary entry in late 2009..

"When I Die.."

I don't remember exactly the contents of the entry, but it was printed and posted up at her house for all to see... her family's way of saying they are doing their best to fulfill her dream funeral maybe?

I only remember the last line..
10. Jokes, laughter and all behavior deemed inappropriate highly encouraged.

She was dressed in black and red.. with her favourite red purse by her side...
Just like she wanted.
She looked peaceful.

First time I've been to a wake where all the eulogies were so funny yet so touching in so many ways.

I've only ever met her once before in Australia but just listening to all the eulogies brought tears to my eyes. The way her friends were so open with their words.

"Keep smiling, keep shining, know that you can always count on me... for sure.. That's what friends are for.."

"You suck lying there all relaxed while we are here living on! But I love you.."

"She was a beautiful mess..."


.. a beautiful mess. She chose that song for her funeral.
It's been on my playlist the whole night.



R.I.P Adrienne Lim.